In recent years Super Bowl Sunday has been a day filled with anxiety. I don't know if anxiety is the right word. It is a day that things tend to come to a head after a long build up. This is what causes the anxiety. A few years ago I learned Winnie* was engaged while I read an email on Super Bowl Friday (is there such a day?). Of course my weekend was pretty much me pondering life and finally Sunday morning I decided my course of action. I remember going to a friend's to watch the game. I felt horrible and kept on thinking people had to be able to tell. Who knows what would have happened if Winnie* and I would have had more of a future. But one thing is for sure life has been pretty good without her.
Last year on Super Bowl Sunday I learned a group of friends were being less than friendly. The new knowledge hurt and again caused the day to be not a celebratory as it should have been. But again after some thought and luck I discovered a new outlook which still helps me to this day.
Again this year, Super Bowl Week has been one filled with lots of thoughts and a bit of anxiety. To be honest this "situation" is not as troublesome as the other two I mentioned, but it is no less thought provoking. My thoughts have been filled with summer plans. As you can read about in a previous post, I am contemplating returning to work at a summer camp. I sent off an initial email and got a response. Now I have to decided my next step. I know this sounds like a nonconsequental decision, but camp has a special place in my sole. My previous experience affected me greatly. I have always thought about returning and now is my chance. To say yes is to take a risk and head off to something I might regret. People say you can never go back. To say no is to close a door on something that has always been a, "what if...".
Looking ahead to my pending decision with WONDER...
Kevin